It's life
You know it’s crazy, how life works sometimes. How hard things can get so fast. I swear this last year has been the worst year in my life so far. There’s been so many nights I’ve sat wake thinking about letting go. Honestly I don’t even know what kept me here. I try so hard some days to put a smile on my face so people don’t ask questions. Some times i just feel so alone. Like im standing in a huge black room all alone. Hurt, betrayed, and so much more.
Sometimes the only thing keeping me here is the cuts on my wrists. i’m trying to stop I really am. I’ll stop for a few weeks then feel there’s no other way out. Sometimes my mind goes so fast it’s just overwhelming. Thing just get so hard.I look at the razor wondering if it’s really worth the pain. I blame myself for so much. When i think of cutting i think of you…. And how happy you make me. Then i remember you have to leave soon and i’ll be without you again.
Life is crazy and so misunderstood. People say “smile boo it’s okay” Do you really think that’s going to help? Yes it’s cool to know that people care and people have faith in you but that’s not the point. Some depression can’t be controlled it’s just there. For so long I've felt useless and hurt. I think why does this stuff happen to me... Why am i here? What am i doing here?
7 months later:
You know its crazy how life works sometimes. How hard things can get so fast, or even how good things can get so fast. Like I said before this has been one of the worst ears of my life but i'm so thankful it has... Honestly I've earned so much and I've changed so much. I learned that I don't need someone to make me happy, I only need myself. I learned that it's okay to open up to people sometimes. I realized how lucky i am that God put me through what he has because if he hadn't I wouldn't be where i am now. Where i am now is happy, free, and so much more. No more cuts, and no more scary thoughts. No more late nights and no more pain. I honestly didn't think I was going to get through this year.... I'm so thankful I did. Life is full of so many challenges and ups and downs but you know what Anyone can get through anything in life as long as you have hope and faith. I love the life i live now thanks to my friends, family, and my teachers.
You know it’s crazy, how life works sometimes. How hard things can get so fast. I swear this last year has been the worst year in my life so far. There’s been so many nights I’ve sat wake thinking about letting go. Honestly I don’t even know what kept me here. I try so hard some days to put a smile on my face so people don’t ask questions. Some times i just feel so alone. Like im standing in a huge black room all alone. Hurt, betrayed, and so much more.
Sometimes the only thing keeping me here is the cuts on my wrists. i’m trying to stop I really am. I’ll stop for a few weeks then feel there’s no other way out. Sometimes my mind goes so fast it’s just overwhelming. Thing just get so hard.I look at the razor wondering if it’s really worth the pain. I blame myself for so much. When i think of cutting i think of you…. And how happy you make me. Then i remember you have to leave soon and i’ll be without you again.
Life is crazy and so misunderstood. People say “smile boo it’s okay” Do you really think that’s going to help? Yes it’s cool to know that people care and people have faith in you but that’s not the point. Some depression can’t be controlled it’s just there. For so long I've felt useless and hurt. I think why does this stuff happen to me... Why am i here? What am i doing here?
7 months later:
You know its crazy how life works sometimes. How hard things can get so fast, or even how good things can get so fast. Like I said before this has been one of the worst ears of my life but i'm so thankful it has... Honestly I've earned so much and I've changed so much. I learned that I don't need someone to make me happy, I only need myself. I learned that it's okay to open up to people sometimes. I realized how lucky i am that God put me through what he has because if he hadn't I wouldn't be where i am now. Where i am now is happy, free, and so much more. No more cuts, and no more scary thoughts. No more late nights and no more pain. I honestly didn't think I was going to get through this year.... I'm so thankful I did. Life is full of so many challenges and ups and downs but you know what Anyone can get through anything in life as long as you have hope and faith. I love the life i live now thanks to my friends, family, and my teachers.